Sometimes I get songs stuck in my head and it scares me... makes me wonder how that particular song came bubbling up from the subconscious mind. Tonight the mental juke box has been going steadily. No particularly annoying songs, no particularly great songs, no favorite songs... just songs.
I had a gentle reminder today that I need to take better care of myself. That eating should be a top priority before I slip back into old habits. Even said in a somewhat stern mommy voice. You know something ain't right when friends encourage your OCD tendencies.
I'm restless tonight. Feeling like going for a walk. Can I sneak it so my family doesn't find out? This might be the only time when someone won't see me and report having seen me. And at the mall today a woman I recognize from St. Mary's approached me to say she'd heard I was near death and look great for someone so sick. It's hard to not laugh out loud. I thanked her for thinking of me and assured her I am not near death and never really was... and then I wondered if I was? Bah! I feel fine now.
I think it has stopped raining. Maybe a walk will make me feel more like sleeping. I haven't napped in a week but I still cannot sleep through the night. I'm boring myself and restless. I will take a walk. I'm pretty sure I can do it without falling and hitting my head.
"In the jungle, the mighty jungle, the lion sleeps tonight..."
"Golden slumbers fill your eyes..."
Lots of sleep songs but no feeling of sleepiness.
What if this is as good as it gets?
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I'm having this same problem. Do you think it's our reduced activity? And I have nothing to take to make me sleep. Not after the stuff they gave me in the hospital kept me up all night with hallucinations. No more for me, thanks. :P
Hope you get back on the Sandman's regular route soon.
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