Today hasn't been the best of days. My therapist thinks I need medication for OCD. I don't want to admit my obsessive/compulsive thinking is getting the better of me, but I find when I don't do my rituals I am very "off" for the day. I had a bit of a break down/break through in therapy. And it's so hard for me to ask for help and support. I am so very hard on myself. I was validated in group this evening, though, and they were very helpful in talking things through, asking clarifying questions and such. I don't have my act together and I need people to get that. Just because I make it look easy doesn't mean it is easy. Nothing is easy.
My sister and her husband would like to stay with me (sleeping on the living room floor on an air mattress) and the thought of having people here with me is causing such great anxiety that my stomach is even more churned than the Coumadin special.
I want a cookie.
1 comment:
*hands you a cookie*
Go easy on yourself. You're a great person and you are allowed to need help or not have it together. Let your therapist help you. Going on medication doesn't mean you're a failure. Means you're human.
*hands you another cookie*
No it's not easy, but it will get easier.
I love you.
*hugs you tight*
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