I've been doing a lot of thinking about funerals, mothers and loss--because of my colleague's mother's death. What I've been thinking about is that my mother has been dead longer than she was alive. It's poignant and such a part of who I am that I genuinely can't imagine what I would be like if she was alive longer in my life. I remember reading Motherless Daughters by Hope Edelman but think I might have to pick it up again.

I think my upcoming 45th birthday has something to do with this, too. I've lived as many years without Mum as the years she lived.


Indigo said...

How sad. I'm so sorry. I can't imagine a day without my mom, she's so much a part of my life.

Charlene said...

I am so sorry for your loss.

Memory of someone you love is the thing that enforces a person's life.