So, it's countdown time to the AP Academy at St. Johnsbury Academy in Vermont. I've had a couple bouts of anxiety. I've made lists and lists of things to pack and take with me. Printed out directions for travel. Got the car cleaned out. Checked the tire pressure, oil and so forth. And I know I'm not going to forget anything major.
Then what's the anxiety about? We talked about it in therapy. Part of it is that I'm picking up the anxiety from the colleague and friend who's also going. She's been talking about packing and checking and re-checking details for months. She's rubbing off. Part of it is insecurity about taking the AP course.
But it boils down to perfectionism. Even though I know there's no such thing as perfection. Which is a part of OCD. grrr.
2 comments:
You'll do good and everything will be fine.
I'm the same way when I go on a trip, worrying about everything that I forgot to bring. But in the end it always works out.
(((Hugs)))
You know (the Gal says, drawing upon her own experience) sometimes just knowing WHY you do/feel things makes the stress easier to take.
I try to remember something a minister once advised me, "Don't waste your dread." Or, don't sweat over anticipated trouble -- save it for the real thing. I understand that advice and try to take it to heart. I'm not always successful, but I still I thought I'd share.
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