so...

Here it is another rockin' Friday night. And what am I doing? I'm trying to figure out how early I can go to bed. Woo hoo. There are times I can't believe how wild I am... uhm... ten years ago I never expected this to be my life, that's for sure. Talk about taming the shrew. muahaha...

Dr. Lisa suggested that all the anxiety I've been experiencing lately could not only be stress-related but related to me having to break from my routine. Hmmm. When she said that, it felt like there was an internal "click" and it registered with me. Could it be related to breaking my routines? When is a routine a rut? And, is there anything wrong with a routine? I didn't think I was that tied to my routines... I mean, we allllll have things we do every day, right? So what makes this different than just doing the regular stuff I do? Maybe I'll ask that next week. My therapy homework this week is to do something that is wildly outside of my routine--and journal about how I felt. Unfortunately, she didn't suggest what would be good to try. Do I take a different route to work? Do I go later than I usually go (I mean, I get there almost an hour early)? I don't know if I could get there later, though, I get sooooo cranked when I think I'm going to be late for anything.

Holy moly.

what if this is as good as it gets?